Never Ending Wonderful Story.
Oct. 8th, 2011 06:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
blue_panda26to be honest, i thought that i had managed to let it all out yesterday, but i was lying to myself. i decided to watch Never Ending Wonderful Story again, and it was such a bittersweet feeling. i broke out in tears and began crying even harder than i had originally. but i couldn't stop myself. i wanted to keep watching it. i still am watching it. my heart tightens and aches so much. i can't believe that this is happening. seeing how happy they were then. hearing them talk about how they were able to get through all the struggles they had to deal with after Uchi and Kusano left, it just made tears flow even more. we all thought it was over then. that it would get better from then on. that they would just keep growing stronger and stronger. why did this have to happen? why did this have to happen to the one group that i loved more than everything? why does it hurt so much? why won't the pain stop? why can't we just go back in time? why must we suffer? why NEWS? i was stupid to think that i would be able to get over the sadness and pain so easily. i don't believe it will ever go away.
despite all of this, i have decided that i will continue to support not just NEWS and Ryo, but also Yamapi. he broke his promise to us, and yet still, i cannot hate him. this is the path he is choosing, and as his fan, my love is not so weak that i will give up now. it won't be easy, but i will continue to support all of them. NEWS - all six - are my entire world. and my love for them is a Never Ending Wonderful Story. <3
