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hi minna! <3

this is kei here <3 you can also call me michi~ im new to dreamwidth, but some might know me from livejournal. my lj account has the same name as this one so check me out over there~ i use lj way more~

anyways~
things to know about me: i am probably one of the most epic fangirls EVER. my main fandoms are D-BOYS, Tenimyu, Kamen Rider, Johnny's Entertainment, and AKB48 <3 i am a major jpop and jrock person~ same with jdramas. so yup <3

love of my life: Nakamura Yuichi <3

that's pretty much the basics about me~
yoroshiku! <3

Current Music: 加藤和樹 - EASY GO

i thought that it would be a good idea for me to post my list of my loves~~
but my list is constantly being edited
note that nakamura yuichi is my number one no matter what
because channaka is my entire existence <3

01. nakamura yuichi - the love of my life <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
02. totani kimito - the other love of my life <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
03. yanagishita tomo
04. inoue masahiro
05. matsuzaka tori
06. takagi shinpei + takagi manpei (takagi twins) <3 <3 <3
07. kiriyama renn + suda masaki
08. ozawa ryota + hosogai kei + shimizu kazuki + yamada yuki + ikeda junya
09. fukushi sota <3
<3 where all my loveys who are not on my main list but deserve to be are: furukawa yuuta, sakamoto naoya + sakamoto kazuya, mayama akihiro, kamakari kenta, yagami ren, takiguchi yukihiro, nakagauchi masataka, baba ryoma, fujita rei, suzuki shogo, watanabe shu, maeda gouki, aiba hiroki, and makita tetsuya <3
10. miura shohei

11. furukawa yuuta *holds my heart <3
12. sakamoto naota + sakamoto kazuya (ON/OFF <3) *hold a very very important place in my heart
13. mayama akihiro *holds a very very very special place in my heart <3
14. kamakari kenta *holds a chou special place in my heart <3
15. yagami ren *ouji keeps a very special place in my heart <3
16. takiguchi yukihiro *psssh akaike gets his own penthouse in my heart <3
17. nakagauchi masataka *trickster stole my heart <3
18. baba ryoma *holds an extremely important place in my heart
19. fujita rei *holds an extremely special place in my heart
20. suzuki shogo *holds a super special place in my heart
21. watanabe shu *holds a precious piece of my heart
22. maeda gouki *holds a really special place in my heart <3
23. aiba hiroki *holds a special place in my heart
24. makita tetsuya *holds a special place in my heart
25. minami keisuke
26. ide takuya
27. hashimoto taito
28. miura ryosuke
29. sato yuuichi
30. igarashi shunji
31. sakurada dori

^^ suzuki hiroki + araki hirofumi
> TAKAHIRO (EXILE)
~ tsujimoto yuuki + takasaki shouta
♥ saito takumi

Current Mood: chipper

today is a GLORIOUS day~
*tears up* one of my favorite people ever...
it's KORISU's birthday!!!!!! <3
OSHIMA YUKO - Our Favorite Perverted Squirrel <3
Just Keep on Perving and Groping You Old Geezer! <3
LOVE YOU KORISU <3
お誕生日おめでとう!
Oshiri ω Oshi for Life!

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: AKB48 - 涙サプライズ !

so the LOVE OF MY LIFE, Nakamura Yuichi's birthday was a few days ago on October 8th, but as i was caught up in all the NEWS stuff going on, i was unable to post about it. i am so sorry, Channaka <3 but now i will~ to the person i miss most, to the one who is my entire world, to the light of my life and the center of my universe: Nakamura Yuichi, otanjoubi omedetou <3 my Zeronos~ my Yuuto~ my Channaka~ my ichiban~ i love you <3 happy birthday~

to be honest, i thought that i had managed to let it all out yesterday, but i was lying to myself. i decided to watch Never Ending Wonderful Story again, and it was such a bittersweet feeling. i broke out in tears and began crying even harder than i had originally. but i couldn't stop myself. i wanted to keep watching it. i still am watching it. my heart tightens and aches so much. i can't believe that this is happening. seeing how happy they were then. hearing them talk about how they were able to get through all the struggles they had to deal with after Uchi and Kusano left, it just made tears flow even more. we all thought it was over then. that it would get better from then on. that they would just keep growing stronger and stronger. why did this have to happen? why did this have to happen to the one group that i loved more than everything? why does it hurt so much? why won't the pain stop? why can't we just go back in time? why must we suffer? why NEWS? i was stupid to think that i would be able to get over the sadness and pain so easily. i don't believe it will ever go away.

despite all of this, i have decided that i will continue to support not just NEWS and Ryo, but also Yamapi. he broke his promise to us, and yet still, i cannot hate him. this is the path he is choosing, and as his fan, my love is not so weak that i will give up now. it won't be easy, but i will continue to support all of them. NEWS - all six - are my entire world. and my love for them is a Never Ending Wonderful Story. <3

Current Music: NEWS - DREAMS

Yamashita Tomohisa and Nishikido Ryo withdraw from NEWS

Right now, it feels as if my entire world is collapsing on me. My heart just shattered into a thousand shards. I can't stop the tears and the agonizing pain in my chest. It aches. He promised us, didn't he? Yamapi asked us to wait for him, and we did, but what was the result. Broken hearts and streams of tears. Even if we saw it coming, the impact wasn't softened. I knew them from the beginning, and I stayed with them through it all. And I will continue to stay with them. I do not know whether I can keep supporting Yamapi, but at least I will not give up on Koyama, Massu, Shige, and Tegoshi. Ryo, as well. His reasons are ones that I can sympathize with. It must have been difficult on him. And Kanjani8 were his roots, so it is expected that he'd stay with them. I know that the remaining four will be able to pull through this. I have faith in them. I love NEWS. I always have, and I always will. They are my heart, my soul, my life, my love, and my world. All we can do is continue to stay with them, and wait for them to open their wings and fly again.

Current Mood: broken
Current Music: NEWS - FLY AGAIN

Such a beautiful song~

The outfits are not amazing, but I can accept them. They were chosen to be plain because it is supposed to focus on the atmosphere rather than individual members. It shows their modesty. Also, they are wearing funeral headbands. All this is to represent mourning the deaths of those who passed away during the Tohoku Earthquake. So some may complain about the style being too bland, but the reason is to back away from individual members and from showy-ness, and instead focus on that atmosphere and the actual purpose and meaning of the single. That is why I really cannot find anything negative to say... Still, I love the song, and knowing that the aim is to support victims of the Tohoku Earthquake make this single all the more meaningful. Of all the AKB48 singles, I think this is the one I feel the need to buy most.

Just as the wind never ceases blowing,
the victims of the Tohoku Earthquake shall never cease being remembered.

風は吹いている <3

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: AKB48 - 風は吹いている

started crying... i cant believe that tomochin and chiyuu fell so much...
makes me rele sad 'cause they're my two oshimen...
actually had tears flowing, makes me so upset.
i just cant believe that chiyuu isnt in media senbatsu this year.
last year she BARELY beat aki-cha, but this year she isnt even close.
and takamina fell by one (aki-p's gonna be mad)
same with maririn YnY
congrats to sasshi, yukirin, rena, yuttan, mocchi, and kojiharu though.
not all that surprised about acchan winning, though im slightly sad because i wanted yukorin to win.
i think im most shocked though at nacchan's.
she's one of my favorites too, and im just shocked at how she's managed to stay at 26 for three years straight despite all the major changes in rank.
its like HER NUMBER or something. (funny because 26 is one of my lucky numbers)
ume-chan is front for undergirls now hmmm...
i actually think that a member gets more attention as one of the mains for undergirls than as one of the last members of senbatsu, so i think thats a good spot for ume-chan.
but it used to be love-tan's spot T.T
harugon and myao must be so upset... those two were kicked out of senbatsu...

*cries*
i think my heart broke yesterday...
yesterday, i read that toon factory has announced disbandment...
toon factory are among my top 3 favorite VK bands
so this is so painful to hear...
i love them so much <3
i cant believe that this is happening
too many bands are breaking up
it hurts so much...
i just dont know how to respond
i cant even believe it...

Taku, Heisei Ishin's vocalist, has passed away...
i cant believe it...
it was only announced a week or two ago that Heisei Ishin would disband
i never would have expected this...
the pain in my heart is indescribable.
in reality, it has yet to hit me
first it was piyo, then Daisuke, now Taku
we love you Taku <3
we will never forget you.
please please rest in peace
we know that you're watching over us now
we will always love you <3
rest in peace Taku...
rest in peace

i thought that i had finally finished crying about Daisuke, but reading what Kyo said caused an overflow of tears to stream down my face. im crying and shaking even more than when i first heard of Daisuke's passing. the friendship between them is more beautiful than i can ever comprehend.

( words to Daisuke from Kyo )

Today, on July 15th, one of the best vocalists and musicians has passed away. Our beloved Daisuke, member of Daisuke to Kuro no injatachi and former member of kagerou and the studs has moved on. I just don't know how to accept it. I just can't think clearly. Tears stream down my face in an overwhelming cascade of emotions. How could it be that the same kind, elegant, wonderful Daisuke could move on so soon... I just don't know what to feel. He was the one who always said: "Live every moment, as if it were the last one, filled not with fear, but with the happiness of the moment." Daisuke, I will live my life like you told everyone to. You have touched the hearts of everyone you encountered and all who ever heard your music~ You will live on in the hearts of family, friends, and fans~~ We love you, Daisuke ♥♥ Please, Rest In Peace. You don't need to suffer anymore~ We will try to move forward... for your sake~

Current Music: 大佑と黒の隠者達 - 翻弄

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yoroshiku! <3
michi's list
KORISU! <3 お誕生日おめでとう!
the love of my life <3 Channaka, happy birthday~
Never Ending Wonderful Story.
my entire world is collapsing.
Kaze wa Fuiteiru <3
AKB48 Senbatsu Election 2011 Results
toon factory to disband...
rest in peace, taku <3
words to Daisuke from Kyo (Dir En Grey)
Rest In Peace, Daisuke...

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